When you have Fibromyalgia and your brain does not cooperate with what you need to get done, it makes getting through the day quite the challenge!
This morning I set out to check off my list of ” things-to-do-today” as I did them. However, I had numerous interruptions; ie, the internet man showed up earlier than expected to fix my modem, phone calls and emails kept interrupting my train of thought, and refinance junk suddenly had to get done right then, and, well, MY list of things to do did not get done!
Later, when I tried to focus on the list, my brain just shut down…like out-of-order, shut down.
I used to be on top of EVERYTHING! I was the queen of orderliness and the go-to person for accomplishing a task.
Where is that person??????
I don’t want the label of “Fibromyalgia” to define me. What I mean by that is just because I have it doesn’t mean I don’t have a life. It is just not the life I used to have.
Readjusting to the new me has been an on-going issue for me.
My brain is done. I am typing this because I need to vent a bit. If you are still reading this then I thank you for “listening”…
Only fellow chronic pain sufferers understand the battle we face. They call it brain fog, and that is how I feel.
This blog began to help me express how I feel and the battles I face daily as well as the mini-victories I receive each day.
Today my brain was overloaded and it just shut down. By stopping to write, my hope is that my brain will re-boot itself so I can accomplish something on my list. Not for the lists sake, but because I have relatives arriving in two days, lesson plans to finish for our upcoming home school year and because my personality just desires a check on that stupid list!
Yes, I have Fibromyalgia. Some days I think it has me, too. But I understand that today is gonna have to be one of those days I cannot control.
It is what it is.
That list will just have to sit here another day when my brain allows me to focus.
Good thing it’s written on pretty paper, eh? Humor is good for the soul!
May your day be brain-fog free!
~The Fibro Momma of Ten